For the first time in this degree I really took a dive on an assignment.
It hit my about half way through this semester: I have stopped caring about being in school. I am exhausted by the number of minor time-filling assignments, and I really want to get out to work and just start helping people.
If there is only one thing I did learn, it is how to find enough sources to actually teach yourself about an area, and to do so under time constraints. All of the insights I have had about this career, and all the things I am passionately interested in mostly come from reading on my own, beyond the readings for class. Except maybe for Information Literacy, which was a random class which changed my thoughts about librarianship and education.
I just have to continually tell myself there is less than a month left, and then I can take a long break. But I really do miss reading my own books and developing my own thoughts. My thoughts are going off in new directions, but the rest of my body is stuck coming to class every day.
I can relate to everything you say but don’t worry, you are almost there. I say this from experience: I have two degrees behind me already, and when doing my masters I got so tired of writing papers I could barely concentrate on them. And now I am finishing a degree which just tires me out to think of it, and all my high-minded ideals have evaporated. I am looking forward to a future of reading books for pleasure. So should you, Steven.
April 23rd, 2008, at 1:09 am #